I miss you everyday.It seems like yesterday we were climbing trees,making snow angles,and running from the mean roosters that would pek at our legs.I remember we were running from them one day and, I fell they started peking away at my arms and legs.I started to run and I fell.No matter how fast or hard I tried to run I could never keep up to you.I thought you left me behind and suddenly you were there to pick me up.It seemed as though every time I was in trouble you were there to back me up or sooth my worries or fears.I always wanted to do whatever you were doing and go where ever you went because I wanted to be just like you.Even when I needed advice you tried to give me it to the best of your knoledge because you wanted your words to be true because you"ve been there and done that and when I started messing up and was down you were there for me once again to pick me up but I wouldn't let you.I would give anything in the world to take me back to those times and places where we were both happy and at peice with our selves.I only wish I got the chance to tell you how speial you are and how much I miss and love you.God could"nt of given me a better big sister then you.I also wish I got to tell you what a wonderful mother you are and how lucky Joseph is to have you for a mother and I wish he would of gotten the chance to know what a fun ,loving and caring mother he had and how much the family was proud of her and the baby.Sometimes I wish it were me then you.I can't bear the thought of Joseph being raised without a mother.I just wanted to say I'm sorry I wasn't there and I miss you and love you and promise I will do the best I can to get my life together. Love Always Sisters 4 Life Crystal